March 02, 2003

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I had embarked recently on a very sexual friendship with my ex. It went well for about a week. We had fun. But it confused my emotions too much to continue. I realized how much I cannot bear to picture him with anyone else, and how much I still love him, and would even have him back if it was possible. And that is a big sin. And it is stupid as fuck. So now I told him, I can't do this, It is not good for me. So he said that we will calm it down. or cool it down were some of the words that he used. And I said I think it's best. And he seemed to agree, while reiterating that the breakup will heal better and I'll get over him, and blah blah blah. But its hard to get over someone you are still fucking and still hanging out with and basically going out on dates with and sleeping with, and holding hands with in public. It is not a good look for anyone. And I told him that as long as we kept being in "limbo" like that, I would not be able to get over it, and might get too comfortable in the limbo and not take the chances I need to take to meet someone new and actually find what I really want. And we both agreed on that. And that was that. So, I"m glad that I said something when I began to get wierd about it. IT was not a good move for us.

Posted by dana at March 2, 2003 11:10 AM
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