Writer- one who writes.
I feel like a flake. A fraud. I can't decide whether to be annoyed with myself, disgusted, or to just chalk this up to pre-nano psychosis. The problem? I don't write enough. Not a day goes by that I don't think about writing, and most days I'm researching some aspect of writing, either the craft or business sides, but I haven't been writing lately. The closest I've come is editing my first novel and plotting out my second (unrelated) novel. Every day I tell myself I'm going to sit down and write for a bit. I'm not picky- half an hour while the kids are asleep would be a great start. Heck, 5 minutes while the kids are asleep would be a great start. But what do I do? Anything else I can find to do. I am pathetic. I think that's why I'm looking forward to nano so much. Even though I know my chances of finishing this year are slim to none, it is so much easier to make myself sit and write if I have a specific outside goal. Having thousands of other people who I will never knowingly meet attempting the same feat of insanity does more to get me writing than any personal goal ever has. Now to figure out what to do for the other 11 months... Sigh.
So there's the problem. As fun as it is to joke about procrastinating with Nick, it really does bug me that I don't just sit down and write. I could understand if I didn't enjoy writing, but I do. I love to write, I love to get ideas for stories and weave them through to the end. I'm happiest when I've sat down and gotten words onto paper (or at least a Word document). I think part of the reason is that there always seems to be something else to do, either chores around the house or checking email (which almost always turns into BSing online) or spending time with the family. That's the mindset I have to get out of. There will always be something else I could be doing, and often stuff that I need to be doing. I just need to stop procrastinating over what I want to be doing.
Posted by Jenn at October 12, 2005 03:41 AM