Throughout my life, I've noticed that I attract coincidences. Either that, or I'm semi-charmed. Smaller things, especially those that will help people I care about, happen if I wish for them. Not right away, but eventually, things seem to get better, at least somewhat. Most people would probably say that's because problems usually get solved. I can't argue that. And obviously, I don't get everything I wish for or I would be a multi-millionaire with several published best-sellers. Like I said, semi-charmed. Probably, my wishing and praying did nothing besides make me feel better about a situation I couldn't think of another way to help. But there are times when it really seems like I did help.
Talking with Adam last thursday, he told me about last summer- what he calls his "summer of darkness". It had been a while in coming- I talked to him around New Year's, and he was getting down (that was the conversation that prompted part of "Night for Smoking"), but summer 2005 was when everything came to a head. The pertinent part here was that when he tried to meditate, his "happy place" had been destroyed- he couldn't use it to ground and center. The turning point came when he was "loaned" someone else's sanctuary- specifically, I think it was mine.
His description sounded verbatim like my temple, down to tiny but deeply personal touches. I didn't mention it to Adam when he was telling me about it, because it just seemed too odd; too intimate. I've never described my meditation sanctuary in detail to anyone, and certainly not with the details that he knew. I remember that during the summer I had a hard time finding my sanctuary when I meditated, but that happens to me from time to time- I have a secondary place I go instead. I didn't think anything of it at the time, but now? The only explanation I can think of is when I prayed last winter after that conversation. I wanted to help his heart heal if I could, but I knew there was nothing I could do directly. Giving him my sanctuary was exactly what he needed, when he most needed it, and despite the opening of this entry, I just can't chalk the details up to coincidence.
The other odd little cycle I noticed while reading one of Adam's recent blog entries about finding his animal spirit guide. A few years ago, when he was searching, he had a dream about a dragon. He described the dragon to me and asked my opinion, and I told him it sounded from the coloring like a chaos dragon. Back then, he disagreed, and I doubt that he even remembers the incident now, but looking back I think I was right. Ironic that after the rapid change a chaos dragon causes, Adam finally found that his spirit animal is a turtle.
I could keep talking about some of the other cycles and coincidences I've been noticing in the overall world, but I don't think I could stomach politics on top of 2 pots of coffee, so we'll save that for another time.
Posted by Jenn at October 19, 2005 06:12 AM