January 21, 2006

Everyday Amazing

It''s a good thing I crashed last night (figuratively, not literally) because I would have been hurting today otherwise. Will and Emmy usually nap at the same time, but today they've been alternating. First she fell asleep, then woke up about the same time he fell asleep, and if I get her back to sleep it will be time for him to wake up. So instead of my customary (and usually very much needed) nap, I've been playing with Emily- just the two of us.

I don't get that much time alone with Em. That probably sounds crazy since I'm breastfeeding, but then Will's awake and wanting attention too, plus that's more bonding than playing(until she falls asleep anyway, and I don't want to hear any comments about not nursing babies to sleep- it's worked just fine for me, thank-you-very-much). Since she naps more, I get time alone with Will, but time alone to play with Emily is rare. So today we've been playing for a couple hours.

It's amazing to watch her- to see her little mind working as she studies toys, or me, or the cats. Will was like that too, always figuring out how this strange new world around him works. Even more amazing is to just look at her and think about what she'll be like in 20 years, this tiny little baby- all grown up, able to have her own children. It's fun to think about her all grown up, wondering what she'll be like. I hope we're as close as I am finally with my mom, although I could do without the 7-8 years of arguing. Oh well, I'll keep my fingers crossed...

Mainly now, I'm just enjoying her as a cuddly little infant. It's great that she's growing and doing so well, and soon she'll be up crawling and walking around, but for now she's just my tiny baby, and that is amazing- in an everyday sort of way.

Posted by Jenn at January 21, 2006 05:43 PM
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