Well this is new- my Health & Weight Loss blog not only has readers (at least a couple), I even have a comment now. From a total stranger. I feel connected! And yet I feel anonymous. Before, the only people (OK, let's be honest- person) who commented in my blog were friends that I already knew. Now I feel validated, in a random, online sort of way.
Aw, my little boy's growing up. *sigh* Shocker, right? To think that a mother would wax maudlin over a child maturing... Oh well. In an attempt at restoring some sense of normalcy we bought Will a set of Spiderman sheets yesterday, and he's sleeping on them for the first time tonight. It's his first night sleeping in a regular bed. He's happy- he loves the sheets, and he gets to be near Emily. We set his bed up in her room (it used to be his anyway) instead of the spare bedroom upstairs because he didn't want to be "all alone". So far, so good. He hasn't woken her up, she hasn't woken him up, and he's happily sleeping under a pile of felines (they followed him from the chaise).
He never really slept in his crib. We tried, but since I was working full time when he was an infant, I was usually exausted. He'd wake up to nurse during the night and then we'd fall asleep on the sofa. He grew up a bit, started sleeping through the night, and still slept on the sofa. lol, oh well. Now I have an empty sofa and a crowded nursery room. And my little boy's growing up.
It''s a good thing I crashed last night (figuratively, not literally) because I would have been hurting today otherwise. Will and Emmy usually nap at the same time, but today they've been alternating. First she fell asleep, then woke up about the same time he fell asleep, and if I get her back to sleep it will be time for him to wake up. So instead of my customary (and usually very much needed) nap, I've been playing with Emily- just the two of us.
I don't get that much time alone with Em. That probably sounds crazy since I'm breastfeeding, but then Will's awake and wanting attention too, plus that's more bonding than playing(until she falls asleep anyway, and I don't want to hear any comments about not nursing babies to sleep- it's worked just fine for me, thank-you-very-much). Since she naps more, I get time alone with Will, but time alone to play with Emily is rare. So today we've been playing for a couple hours.It's amazing to watch her- to see her little mind working as she studies toys, or me, or the cats. Will was like that too, always figuring out how this strange new world around him works. Even more amazing is to just look at her and think about what she'll be like in 20 years, this tiny little baby- all grown up, able to have her own children. It's fun to think about her all grown up, wondering what she'll be like. I hope we're as close as I am finally with my mom, although I could do without the 7-8 years of arguing. Oh well, I'll keep my fingers crossed... Mainly now, I'm just enjoying her as a cuddly little infant. It's great that she's growing and doing so well, and soon she'll be up crawling and walking around, but for now she's just my tiny baby, and that is amazing- in an everyday sort of way.Yay, I finally mean that! It is now a happy 2006 as opposed to before when it was just 2006. Nothing amazing has happened yet, but for some reason I just feel really good about this year. I can feel the potential for great things literally burning in my blood. I can't explain why, but I think this is going to be a great year. Part of it is probably the relief of the holidays being over- I spent the last week or more of 2005 in a serious funk, along with the first day of this year. Glad that's over!
Of course I have a few resolutions.
1) Lose weight.
2) Work on my writing at least 5 days or 20 hours a week. Preferably both, but as long as I hit at least one a week I'll be happy. If I'm going to be a published writer, I need to start acting like it.
3) Reduce my debt by at least 10%, preferably more.
4) Patience and positivity. Especially with my kids.
5) Be happy!